My Mainsail

My favorite preacher and the total reflection of my faith.

Samurai

From Geisha to Samurai...perfectly normal...both Jap (therefore justified)

Some people might notice I didn't blog for 9mths until the recent post 'Refracted Reflections'. Well. Sometime in between that post and the one prior I decided the blog was too boring and decided to do some interior designing/renovations. Result...definitely more personal. Part of the changes was removing the old background music and so I decided to make a new one...

My discovery took me on a journey through iTunes and I stumbled across my old OSTs from various movies. (gotta love Hans Zimmer)

I was tempted to chose "arrival to Earth" from Transformers but I thought that would be a bit excessive.

If it wasn't Transformers it could only be one other...The Last Samurai...

duhhh..can't you see the resemblance between robots and samurai!?

Anyway...

What I really intended was to link this post to 'Leavetakings', to try and give myself some peace of mind. Uninvited my mind drifted off to the word (pictured above) (which in Jap stands for Samurai) meaning..."To Serve" and it reminded me of Joshua 24:15b

"But as for me and my household, we will serve the LORD."

and so...I'm completely at ease...wherever I am, whatever I do, I still serve.

/joy

oh yea...the score that lead to all this>>> Red Warrior- Hans Zimmer (posted below)

Memoir of a Geisha

(On a side note, I've chosen a set structure
for my blog...I hope its obvious...
but we'll have to wait and see)

The other day on msn, a friend remarked after I 'revealed' my blog...

'I guess people do get quite personal in their blogs'...

which made me think...have I been too personal? I guess the last post about refractions/rarefactions/quantum tunneling atoms [part1] did mention names... (oh wait, I still have to do part 2)...and the recent post on leaving was kinda...eehh [shrugs shoulders].

ok...so this one will hopefully be a less melancholic read.

So I was at work...(good start) one Friday afternoon at around the time when all productivity ceases...2.11pm to be exact. Yes ppl. Email me at 2.11pm for instant response.

So the clever scheming Kevstar I am, took a file and went out for some 'attendance'. At around the bottom of the Hitachi building this barrister kind of...trodded...out the lift with his tie half undone. Usually this meant 'hey everyone my weeks over!'. He (MJH) looked about as surprised to see me (KHZ) as I was to see him...

MJH: shit...Fred must've sent him to pick up those Reply/s which I haven't done...
KHZ: shit...he's gonna mention with that loudmouth of his to Fred that I was killing time bumming in the city...

So it turned into a very interesting conversation indeed. It went along the lines of...

[banta] [banta] [slovakian swear word] [banta] [banta] [slovakian curse] [banta]
(yes this particular Counsel is Slovakian)
...so what kind of stuff does Fred get you doing nowadays?
bla bla bla [statement of claim]
bla bla bla [s22 response]
bla bla bla [this and that]
...yea so you're basically Fred's whore...

... ...
... ...
... ...

(-_- ok...I know who I ain't instructing in the future)

...well no I don't work that hard, usually not that committed also...how bout we lower the bar a notch...say...a geisha?

I walked away very content with myself for that witty response...

That convo aside...he's not too bad...other recent convo involving him:

me: this client can be ...u know...bit of a dickhead at times...
him: don't worry, you just have to be in control
[enter client]
(conference)
[exunt client]
him: gee, that guy's a dickhead!
me: mmm
him: advice...settle early...
me: agreed.

/out

P.S. At 2.11pm even photographing your office with your mobile is more fun than...work

Leavetakings

7 years...

364 Sundays...

It is time. To let go. To move on. To grow up.

No easy decision to part with the one place where all spirit and soul were poured out. It couldn't work for me and I couldn't work for 'it'.

Its not about the church, that place is Holy, is serene. Its about me. I'm not strong enough to stay on, there are forces twisting me into bitterness. I'm caving in.

Oct 5 2008.

Is this it?

We shall see...

crying out/